I read this post by Deborah of Truthful Mommy, and it really struck a chord with me. I was watching my sweet Munch sleep the other night. She looked at the same time like the baby I nursed to sleep and the girl she is becoming. I cried thinking of how impatient I am with her.
She is just a little girl who wants her mommy’s attention so badly. I am making a concerted effort to spend more time with her alone. Since Skeeter takes a long afternoon nap, this is feasible. I know that she will be in school full-time next year, and I want to cherish every moment I have with her.
Munch is so sensitive just like I am. She had a hard time transitioning with her little sister. Part of that was due to my anxiety and depression. I wish I could erase those memories of how sick I was and how much I emotionally and mentally wasn’t there.
My sweet brave girl, I wish I could slow time down and keep you little for a little while longer. My job as your mama is to raise you to become independent. I love you so much, and your compassion shines through in all of your actions. Remember always how much I love you. Never forget that. Always keep your sweet, forgiving spirit. You teach me and inspire me every day.