Steady As We Go

Today I am publicly thanking the unsung hero in my journey to recovery from postpartum depression and postpartum anxiety.  I would not be here without the guidance and support of my husband.  I think that the lyrics from Dave Matthews Band’s song Steady As We Go illustrate his support of me.

When the storm comes
You shelter me
And I don’t say a word
And you know exactly what I mean

In the darkest times
You shine on me
You set me free
And keep me steady as we go

So if your heart rings dry my love
I will fill your cup
And if your load gets heavy girl
I will lift you up

But troubles they may come and go
But good times be the gold
So if the road gets rocky girl
Just steady as we go

I cannot even begin to tell you how much I appreciate everything that you have done for our family in the past 22 months.  You picked up everything when I couldn’t.  You prepared all of the meals, and you did all of the grocery shopping.  You were both mom and dad to the girls when I just couldn’t.  You were sensitive to my needs. You sacrificed so much for this family.  I love you even more if that’s even possible.  We made it through hell, and we are still here.

I know that I am challenging.  Even though I have recovered from my postpartum depression and my postpartum anxiety, I still struggle with the generalized anxiety disorder that has come home to roost.  What amazes me is how you continue to listen to me.  I told you the other day if I told you all my worries that I feel like I would never stop talking.  You did not dismiss this at all, and I appreciate it. 

I am trying my best to figure out how to balance taking care of myself, taking care of you and taking care of the girls.  Continue to be patient with me as I navigate this.  Thank you for being my partner through all of this.  I could not have done it without your love and your support.