Steady As We Go

Today I am publicly thanking the unsung hero in my journey to recovery from postpartum depression and postpartum anxiety.  I would not be here without the guidance and support of my husband.  I think that the lyrics from Dave Matthews Band’s song Steady As We Go illustrate his support of me.

When the storm comes
You shelter me
And I don’t say a word
And you know exactly what I mean

In the darkest times
You shine on me
You set me free
And keep me steady as we go

So if your heart rings dry my love
I will fill your cup
And if your load gets heavy girl
I will lift you up

But troubles they may come and go
But good times be the gold
So if the road gets rocky girl
Just steady as we go

I cannot even begin to tell you how much I appreciate everything that you have done for our family in the past 22 months.  You picked up everything when I couldn’t.  You prepared all of the meals, and you did all of the grocery shopping.  You were both mom and dad to the girls when I just couldn’t.  You were sensitive to my needs. You sacrificed so much for this family.  I love you even more if that’s even possible.  We made it through hell, and we are still here.

I know that I am challenging.  Even though I have recovered from my postpartum depression and my postpartum anxiety, I still struggle with the generalized anxiety disorder that has come home to roost.  What amazes me is how you continue to listen to me.  I told you the other day if I told you all my worries that I feel like I would never stop talking.  You did not dismiss this at all, and I appreciate it. 

I am trying my best to figure out how to balance taking care of myself, taking care of you and taking care of the girls.  Continue to be patient with me as I navigate this.  Thank you for being my partner through all of this.  I could not have done it without your love and your support.

About tranquilamama

Juggling parenthood, housework and working outside the home in the corporate world with my wonderful husband. Mom to 2 beautiful girls. PPD and PPA survivor. The title of my blog is after a phrase that was repeated to me in Spain during my semester abroad in college. It roughly translates to relax and calm down. Trying to tame my inner perfectionist and just be a good enough mom.
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4 Responses to Steady As We Go

  1. katery says:

    we are lucky beyond word to have the loving and supporting husbands that we do. where would we be without them? i don’t even like to think about it.

  2. So beautiful… It’s amazing how these men cope with us, isn’t it? 🙂 We are very, very lucky. And I guess so are they.

    • Thank you so much. I am so lucky, and I understand this even more after my struggle with PPD and PPA. My struggles really put a strain on our relationship, but we weathered the storm.

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