It’s been a rough few weeks in our household. Somehow bedtime got later and later, and we ended up with extremely overtired children. Skeeter has been resisting bedtime and is requiring a lot of our attention to help her get settled. I am still nursing her, but she is no longer nursing to sleep as she used. Skeeter has always been a light sleeper. She cannot be transitioned from the boppy to her crib until she is in a deep sleep. Skeeter’s sleep has been terrible lately. She is waking up more often at night, usually once a night again.
Munch, our oldest, has always been a fantastic sleeper. She was that baby who would sleep 6 – 9 hours at night by the time she was eight weeks old. Munch is also a deep sleeper. As she transitions from one nap to no nap, this has been a struggle. She sees all the attention that is given to Skeeter, and she has been increasingly demanding of my time. She needs to have me sleep with her in her twin bed before she will settle down. This resulted in me falling asleep in her room. When I would wake up, I would be groggy and irritated. I was getting sleep, but it wasn’t quality sleep.
This lack of sleep and ensuing bedtime battles have been really rough on both my husband and I. We have become increasingly more sleep deprived. I have been really short with everyone. I also had an emotional meltdown – the first in months. I was upset that Skeeter only wanted to nurse to sleep. I just wanted to sleep. I resented the fact that I could not get anything done at night. Dishes did not get done for days at a time. Crumbs piled up on our dining room floor. I started experiencing my middle of the night insomnia which was one of the triggers for my postpartum anxiety. I realized that I needed to change this before I start my new job. I will be learning a lot, and I need to be fully present.
So this past week we attempted to get back on track. Our whole family needs to sleep well. I realized how important sleep is to my mental health. I realized how important sleep is to my girls and my husband. It is amazing how much easier it is to navigate the day when we are all well rested. Tonight was a win for me. Skeeter was down by 8 p.m., and Munch fell asleep by 8:30 p.m. I got to spend time with both girls getting them down for bed. My husband and I need to spend time together at night, and tonight I got to watch some TV with him. We got mostly caught up on our laundry. I was able to get a little work done as well. I am moving to a new department in two weeks, and I am in the mode of must tie up all the loose ends. It’s the little things that make our household run a little smoother and start the week off on a positive note.