So I will be starting a new position in two and a half weeks. It is with the same company, but it is a step up and promotion for me.  I was over the moon at getting this job.  It increases my network greatly, and I will be very visible to some top executives.  I was feeling so full of promise and flush with the acceptance of the offer which was a nice boost to my current salary.

Then my old nemesis anxiety crept in.  I started to feel all this pressure to get everything done before I leave.  I needed to tie up all loose ends.  Then the interviews for my position started except they upgraded my current position to one I would have liked.  So now the doubt is creeping in that I won’t be good enough for this position.  This doubt was exacerbated by the lackluster reception that I received from my coworkers when I broke the news.  It’s like they have already moved on, and I am just the gum on the bottom of their shoe.  I feel like I never got the respect that I deserved in my soon to be old position from soon to be former colleagues.  I was one of the youngest on the team, and I felt that it put me at a disadvantage at times.  Plus I was still the newbie at tenure within the team.  Everyone else had been with the company for 10+ years. 

So I am getting the anxiety sweats and feeling really emotional.  Couple that with a few rough nights of sleep, and I have been a mess today.  This time I know what to do.  I am reaching out and talking to friends, online and via phone.  I have conquered this demon before, and I will do it again.  I deserve this opportunity.  I worked very hard to get it.  I can make it through two and a half more weeks.


About tranquilamama

Juggling parenthood, housework and working outside the home in the corporate world with my wonderful husband. Mom to 2 beautiful girls. PPD and PPA survivor. The title of my blog is after a phrase that was repeated to me in Spain during my semester abroad in college. It roughly translates to relax and calm down. Trying to tame my inner perfectionist and just be a good enough mom.
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12 Responses to Transitions

  1. Imperfectmomma says:

    Proud of you momma. You can & will do wonderfully at this. Praying for ya

  2. Thank you so much. I just need to keep my eyes on the prize and focus on finshing out these last few weeks out strong.

  3. katery says:

    congratulations! i bet you’ll be great!

  4. Thank you so much. I am really excited about it.

  5. Congratulations, and sending vibes for peace to you. *HUG*

  6. Congratulations! You’re going to be great. You can do it – that’s why they picked you for the job. 😉 Sending you hugs!

  7. quinn0808 says:

    You deserve the promotion don’t ever doubt that.

  8. mammacockatoo says:

    Congratulations on the new position! I’m sorry the good feeling was marred by the doubt. I understand. I think the hardest part is that there is probably a certain amount of “normal” nervousness/anxiety mixed in, and the extra doubt feeds off it and compounds it. At least, I think that’s how it often works for me. I’m so glad you have your coping plan in place, so you can move on and enjoy what you’ve earned.

    • Yes that is exactly it. My anxiety just goes into overdrive. I need to keep reminding myself to trust myself. I got great words of wisdom from a colleague, and I am focusing on finishing out strong.

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