About

My name is Jenny. I am the mom to two beautiful girls (referred to as Munch and Skeeter) and wife to a wonderful husband. I took a little detour into the land of postpartum depression and postpartum anxiety after the birth of my youngest daughter (Skeeter) three years ago. I am fighting my way back and rediscovering myself, that part of myself that had been lost to the depression and anxiety.

Tranquilamama is my story through this journey. I have recovered, but I still continue to heal. I wanted to let other mamas know that they are not in this alone. I have been there. I am starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel. There is hope and beauty in life.

Please e-mail me at tranquilamama@gmail.com if you want to chat and not leave a comment.

6 Responses to About

  1. Blogging saved my life.

    It did.

    And it continues to do it.

    Never stop putting your heart and words here: it’s how I make it and pull through my days.

    • Reading other mom’s blogs who were going through PPD and PPA inspired me to start sharing my story. It has been so healing for me. I know that I have a space now of my own.

  2. jblog says:

    You are a strong mama!!! You have a wonderful blog!:)

  3. Kel says:

    I began having the most sordid, vile and unwanted intrusive thoughts almost a week ago now, completely like a bolt out of the blue. Before this, these types of thoughts would never have entered my head (at least I think they wouldn’t have, but can’t be sure at the moment because of how I’m feeling). I have always considered myself to have high morals and also have religious faith to accompany these moral so these thoughts go against everything I know to be right and good within this world and TERRIFY me. I feel shaken to the core that I am even capable of such thoughts and questions constantly where they are coming from. I am paralysed with fear at the moment and feel I cannot go on as I have turned into a monster who cannot mix with society and will need to be locked away. I love my 6 month old daughter but cannot bear to be around her or other children as it triggers these thoughts and makes my anxiety and terror worse. I have sought initial help from professionals and have just been placed on meds to help dampen the thoughts initially. A treatment plan will be looked at on Wednesday. I just want these awful disgusting thoughts to go away so I can be there for my daughter (who I love with every fibre of my being and who is very safe with my parents at the moment). I feel terrified that the thoughts will never leave me, they have become me and there’s no turning back.

    • Kel, I am sending you so much love. Intrusive thoughts are so incredibly terrifying. These thoughts are not you. You know that they are not real. I am so glad that you reached out for help and that you are on medication. What helped me combat these thoughts was a combination of therapy, medication, and support from friends and family as well as peer to peer support online. If you like, I can add you to a private FB group for mamas who are struggling. The thoughts will leave eventually. I do still struggle with them from time to time in times of extreme stress. Now I have tools that I can use to combat them. I name them as an intrusive thought, and it lessens its power and its grip on me. You will be well, and the thoughts will diminish. Hold on to that hope.

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