So I will be starting a new position in two and a half weeks. It is with the same company, but it is a step up and promotion for me. I was over the moon at getting this job. It increases my network greatly, and I will be very visible to some top executives. I was feeling so full of promise and flush with the acceptance of the offer which was a nice boost to my current salary.
Then my old nemesis anxiety crept in. I started to feel all this pressure to get everything done before I leave. I needed to tie up all loose ends. Then the interviews for my position started except they upgraded my current position to one I would have liked. So now the doubt is creeping in that I won’t be good enough for this position. This doubt was exacerbated by the lackluster reception that I received from my coworkers when I broke the news. It’s like they have already moved on, and I am just the gum on the bottom of their shoe. I feel like I never got the respect that I deserved in my soon to be old position from soon to be former colleagues. I was one of the youngest on the team, and I felt that it put me at a disadvantage at times. Plus I was still the newbie at tenure within the team. Everyone else had been with the company for 10+ years.
So I am getting the anxiety sweats and feeling really emotional. Couple that with a few rough nights of sleep, and I have been a mess today. This time I know what to do. I am reaching out and talking to friends, online and via phone. I have conquered this demon before, and I will do it again. I deserve this opportunity. I worked very hard to get it. I can make it through two and a half more weeks.